I feel trapped,
So you lock the door

I feel alone,
So you isolate me further

I feel poor
So you take away my coins

What kind of heartless monsters are you?
Why save my life
At the expense of my sanity?

If you send me away,
Lock me up long at all,
The life I return to will be
Worse than the one I wish to leave

Take your "safety,"
Your care and your concern
Take your help and
Give it to someone who cares

This bed is not my own
This pillow hurts my head
The clothes I wear always the same
The scars are all that change

You will say I am not safe
That I am dishonest with
My treatment
But what help will I find here
Away from all that matters?

I no longer wish to be "better"
I have no desire to get well
Just give me my life
That I might end it
And end too my sojourn in hell

You say that I am ill
There are things wrong in my head
But I am not the ones who force breath
Into the walking dead

I do not understand
This care and this concern
You can't see I died long ago
So why care for a corpse
Or cry tears over a man with no life?

You define being safe
A bit narrowly
You say I can't tear up my skin
But when you lock me up
The blood does not stop
And your eyes are too blind to see

So please set me free
Please unlock the door
Please give me my own dignity
You've lost, so have I
Please leave me to claim my reward

Your bones will not crack
Your blood will not run
Down to turn the ice and snow red
Your life will not end
And I will be then
Just a name on the forms you must fill

You gave me your time
And I'm sorry
You threw it away wastefully
You tried your best to help me
But some wounds are not meant to heal

I wish I could see through your eyes
This person you think that I am
For all these things you name off
To encourage
Cannot in my own self be found

I love you, my son and my dearest
I hope that you grow tall and strong
I know you'll love and be loved
I'm sorry to leave you so soon

I love you, my family, my brothers
I am sad at the thought of your grief
But your love had no arms to hold me
And I felt your care not at all

I love you, past loves and past lovers
I'm glad you can love happily
I'm sorry we don't stand together
But I know I'm the one who's not free

I love you, my friends, my own family
I ache at the thought of your pain
I wish that my heart could be lighter
That our love would not die now in the end

Farewell to all those who've known me
Farewell to the stranger, foe, friend
Now go, live your lives and be happy
Forget now the one who could not

It's been long since a poem
Just exploded right out of my soul
Even now it says "Rise and enlarge me"
Release all the pain you now hold

But my pain cannot be released
It has grown into one with my soul
The darkness is host, not a guest now
It is too late to regain what I've lost

So now I take leave of this body
It's betrayed me again and again
Farewell I now say to my heartbeat
I have no use for you now, anymore

I sorrow to pain those who love me
Though they likely are loving a lie
There's no me inside, there's just nothing
My self has been all washed away

These tears held my self in their teardrops
This blood carried my self in its flow
These words hold my self in their ink
The last piece of my self you now hold