Just Do

A friend says
Don't think, just do
But even that
Requires thought
I don't know what to do
I read the Word
Pray
Try to do what I should
But sooner
Or later
The struggle comes back
So, what am I to do?

I don't wanna struggle
Forever
I don't wanna be here
In five years
Or even months

I don't want to be scared
Of my own kitchen knives
Or drawn to them
I can't go on like this
But what do I do?
What do I change?